Thursday, May 14, 2015

Emotional Fog

For the past couple of weeks, my mind has been in a complete fog. I can't tell if I'm coming or going. There's too much over stimulation or something, but I definitely know that things just aren't right. Testing season has begun in the state of South Carolina and as a school counselor, we are responsible for preparing  the material that students will test on. Constantly looking at numbers, over and over and over... reaching, grabbing, piling, making copies, creating forms and documents (you get the picture) have caused my brain to be on OVERLOAD.  

Late nights...early mornings...everything that a body doesn't need has lead to total exhaustion. Where does the fogginess come in?

Fogginess from the lack of sleep. Fogginess that causes me to forget things. I begin to look for something and can't find it.  I pause for a moment and then realize it was right in front of me the entire time.  Numbers begin to cross, names begin to play tricks on me. Beginning to feel Overwhelmed!!!  Did I mention forgetfulness?   Received call from receptionist on Friday from my dental office. Remembered I had an appointment two days after it had occurred.   Forgot to report to my 2nd job on Wednesday...luckily that's at our after school program and was understood by my boss.  All focus has been on testing.  Family needs get neglected... this I hate the most. There are things I need to do for my children; things that require my full attention that I can only partially attend to.  Misplaced my phone; sent email out to staff; found phone hours later in the most awkward place.  Mail piling up and creating a mountainous mess on my desk at home.  Phone calls go unanswered from time to time.  The stress of everything comes through with knots and pain in my shoulders and neck.  When will this fogginess end? Not soon enough.